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I can't keep up with my own life anymore.

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I'm finally Mrs. Michael Ross Eliassen! The wedding went by too fast for how much work I put into it. I loved it though. I was very pleased with everyone who could make it and for those who couldn't...I understand. For our honeymoon we road tripped it up Hamlin, Pennsylvania. My grandfather has a very lovely house out there. Michael got really sick on the ride up. I felt bad for him :/ While staying in PA we went to Scranton PA. The Electric City!!! Michael and I went to some museums and tours. Michael went on his first horse! We went horse back ridding. It was so fun! Then we booked it over to New York to visit with the family. I got to meet my cousin's spouses and see my cousins. Everybody is so grown up. Haha. Michael was able to get to see the city! Even though he didn't get to see everything he wanted to, I think we still had a nice time. It was so great to get away. I felt like the honeymoon made Michael and I closer, which is always good! I am so excited to start our life together.

Now I know what the term means "the honeymoon is over". I was forced back into reality. Unfortunately, I didn't have the best two days back. Same shit, different day. This store is really getting to me. I guess it wouldn't be TOO bad if I wasn't night manager. I can't handle that position. The nights are getting to me. People are getting to me.

Michael is moving up this weekend. My room is a mess. Ha. Off to bed I go. Until next time.

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Driving gives me time to collect all my thoughts. You would have never have guessed how much you can think about in a span of three hours. When the only thing you have to stimulate your mind is the passing of cars and the same songs I've heard numorous times. It makes me think that there is so much more I want to do with my life. I'm done coasting. I want to do something! I just wish I was at a place in my life right now for it. I'm there mentally, just not finanacially. I get a good chunk of money when I turn 25 from my father's death. I'm just afraid I would have already missed my chance. Maybe I can convince my mother to take our road trip we've always dreamed of. It was so funny when I told her about my friend Ed and his father going on their road trip she became so jealous. Haha. We'll get our turn, Mama. I think it would be so good for my mother. She needs to be free of her burdens. I do not want her turning out like her mother. It makes me so mad just thinking about that. 

I've been super stressed about the wedding. I think I'm mostly stressed thinking about money. I feel guilty for spending that much money on our wedding. Especially, since Michael doesn't even want to have a ceremony and reception with everyone right now. He said it would be too much stress for us right now. I hate it when he's right :/ 

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It's official. Michael and I are engaged. I am beyond excited! However the planning, not to excited about. Haha. It's going to be interesting. We're not having a ceremony, so all we have to worry about is the reception. Which is fine by me. Michael is also joining the Air Force. It's going to be hard not seeing him for about 8 months, but after basic and tech school I'll be able to live with him on base. Then we will spend the rest of our lives together. Ah. I love him. I love my life.

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Today was my first day off in about eight days. Haha. Ever day I had a day off they called me in. When they tried to call me this morning to come in. I was grumpy, so I said "I'm at 40 hours. Unless you guys are going to pay my fucking overtime you can forget about me coming in." Haha! It was nuts. I can't believe I said that. I was so mad. I called today to make sure they weren't mad at me and what not. Apparently, the store manager lied to me. She said that they got someone to come in from another store, but I talked to the R3M who said that the 2nd shift girl came in early. Wtf. Why did you need to lie? Haha. Whatever! It was nice having the day off, though. I just cleaned and did laundry. I work overnight on Tuesday. That's going to suck. However, Michael is coming up on Friday though!! I'm excited for that. Off to watch The City.

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Good news: My settlement from my car accident is finally getting settled? Haha. If that makes sense. I am getting a pretty good chunk of money. Enough to pay my med bills, rest of my car loan, pay off my credit cards, and then some!! I'm so stoked. Things are looking up. I know sometimes life just sucks so bad, but I'm getting mine now. I'm going to make the best of my situation. I'm trying to be more positive lately. It's looking pretty good so far 8)

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My jewelry making has been going really well lately. I think a couple more months, and I'll be posting my stuff on etsy. I have a good collection going. Hopefully, I will soon have a good amount of materials, so I won't have to go to Joann's and Michael's every time I realize I need this certain string, wire, or bead. Haha!

However, work....is work. I'm trying to hard to stay away from the bullshit drama. We all know how that goes. It's not THAT bad. Zach says I complain about every job I have ever worked at. He's probably right. I've brushing up on my Spanish, I would like to be fluent in it eventually. I just want to learn a new language, and Spanish seems the more practical right now. Considering, I live in a town with a high population of Hispanic ethnicity.